Thank you and good news for a change

My heart rate finally dropped this evening from 125-200 down to 70-90. BP dropped down to 100/60 which is my normal. Hallelujah. I took potassium pills, ate bananas and took Propranolol (a beta blocker) 3 times between yesterday afternoon and this evening. I don't know what did it, the pills, prayer, or all of it, but I hope it stays down and I don't need the beta blocker permanently, or a pace maker, or anything else! I wonder if something was causing Hypokalemia (low potassium) that needs to be addressed? Seems that the Propranolol did nothing until I added the potassium pills this afternoon on my own accord. It went down fast after I did 2 of those. It could be I just lost too much K sweating sometime this summer. I hope so. 

I think this thing has been something going on for some time and I had been ignoring it, it only just recently got worse. I can think of a few times in previous weeks where I felt really sick, dizzy and nauseated from the heat and had to lay down. My heart keeps racing when I come up two flights to my bedroom and sweating (when everyone else is fine) has been an issue for quite awhile. I have become a pro at ignoring symptoms to try to live as active and normal a life as I can and I try not to complain. 

I was told yesterday I may have Sjogren's Syndrome, an autoimmune condition causing dry mucous membranes that I've battled with for weeks. My mouth is less dry now, so hopefully not. It may all be related to the low potassium which may be acute or may be a symptom of an issue I'm not aware of yet. I'm hoping it's not a symptom of yet another problem.

For now, I am just happy I can breathe normally. I couldn't get enough air through my nose to keep up with the demands of my racing heart so I had to breathe through my mouth even when eating and talking- so annoying.  I was huffing for air just sitting doing nothing. I was sweating out my clothes doing daily tasks in an air conditioned house. We turned the ac down to 72 and everyone was freezing and I was still dripping. I was really miserable, and I am much less so now. I'm just exhausted. It's like I ran a marathon, only everyone that knows me knows I never would do that!

I really had a hard time keeping a happy attitude in so much misery and with possibilities of a new auto immune disease, heart problems and IV antibiotics being thrown around by both my doctors. I really was wishing for a way to throw in the towel. I don't intend at all to sound suicidal (I am not) but I was close to the end of my rope. I asked Jim what happened if I quit the IV's and treatments and just give up? He was no consolation to me when he said I'd probably just be more debilitated and miserable, but not die. Probably he's right. Only in the Lord's time. 

A couple of posts ago I said "could it get worse?" Then, it did. How about, can it get better?! Maybe I asked the wrong question last time!?

Thanks for your support and prayer. Sorry for my stinky attitude. I don't know what the lesson is here, but I think I got an F. I'm not on anything to stabilize my mood or help with depression. It's all au naturel here and sometimes it's rather ugly. 

Nicole