I remarked to Jim today how incredibly hard our lives are right now. We are both so exhausted. However, our problems are polar opposite of each other. I sleep 12 hours and I am still was so exhausted from being sick that I've done little but IV's and sleep the past two days. He keeps taking a long route to Tulsa for extra money meaning he nearly maxes out his DOT hours and goes to work on 5 1/2 hours of sleep. His little bit of time (2-3 hours) at home is spent helping me and running my IV's. We talk about changing our lifestyle, moving, something to take some pressure off, but we don't think it's possible right now to sell our house. Plus, the house we'd need now and the house we will need in a short number of years will be totally different as our older kids begin to grow up and move out. So, we have to just wait it out.
It seems to me that nothing in life has ever gotten easier despite the prevailing myth that "after this or that" surely the next stage will be easier. Definitely in our particular case, life has increasingly and rapidly gotten more complicated and difficult with each of our 17.5 years of marriage. I really can't imagine it getting harder than now. Jim assured me earlier that, "it will get easier." Then, he added, "in heaven." I admit my heart sunk. Yes, I rejoice and believe in heaven, but I can't imagine 50 more years of this first. Does life ever get easier?
Ok, pity party over. (Please don't post this one on chapel channels.)
Nicole
